Twilight

I remember pretty vividly the first time I read the Twilight Series. I was so into them, I barely noticed anything going on around me. I listened to Jack Johnson while reading the books, sometimes when I hear his genius music today, it reminds of different parts of the books. Isn't that so crazy?
Anyway, when I finished the books, took a breather and thought through everything I just read... I actually believed that, that was the biggest waste of my time. I mean, Bella and Edward are infatuated with each other, it is disgusting and stupid.
From there I had wonder; why was I so enthralled by such a dumb story.
Let's take that from something as infantile as Twilight and bring it to our lifestyles and life choices.

I was thinking of people I know who believe in Jesus Christ and yet live in ways that are plainly stated in the Bible as sin. Do they know they are sinning? Or are they so caught up in their sin that they don't believe that it is a sin?

What is even scarier, is that I know they are sinning, but what in my life is blinding me? Like, what is the sin that I justify and refuse to lose a grip on?

My point with the Twilight story, since you may be confused, is that we sometimes don't realize how stupid or wrong our life styles or choices are until we step away and take a look from the outside.

I have been challenged to think about the thoughts that I am thinking and the choices I am making, wish me luck.

The Exasperating, Humiliating Lessons About Failure.

I'm still thinking about it at 4:31 in the morning. Is this what we have come to in our relationship? Seriously, me and this failure need counseling.

Today, I failed a test. Let me say that again; today, I failed a test. Whatever happened to "failure is not an option" ? Honestly, I've never said that and meant in my life.
So do I think failure is an option? Do I believe that I am a failure? Seriously.

My professor walked me to his office and kindly gave me names of some nice ladies who would be more than willing to help me with the class. What an absolute relief. Help is on the way.

I am mortified; my pride has been stripped like a Brazilian wax. I need help and all I can think is... I need help?

Ah, so my pride has not been completely shredded. I want to pass. I need to pass. I have to pass. I cannot accept failure. I cannot.


I am worth way more than I am telling myself.

Let's throw in some Remember the Titans, shall we?

I will not be intimidated. That's just the way it is. 

Everything is so much clearer at 5am; my thoughts are straight and my goal is clear.  I am a sucker for movie quotes, and the only one that keeps running through my head is from Elizabethtown. Now I could write a whole book on that movie. But I'll spare all of you thousands of readers I have out there.

So you failed. Alright you really failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You think I care about that? I do understand. You wanna be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling. 

I have seen the movie countless times and I finally have discovered the point. We can survive these obstacles. We can endure this pain. Hebrews 10:39 states it so plainly and richly for us.

But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls. 

I have not been created for failure, but I will still fail. What I do with that failure, determines whether or not I can be defined as a failure.

In my book, failure is welcomed with open arms... that way I can push through it.


Good night to a learning day; Hello to an action day.

The Best of ME!

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in Your body. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Physically

• Hair
• Healthy
• 125lbs
• Mascara 
• Deodorant
• Water
• Sleep
• Shaved

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30

Emotionally

• Friends
• Journalling 
• Expressing
• Music

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

Psalms 139:14

Spiritually

• Meditating
• Memorizing
• Worship
• Prayer

God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns.

Psalms 46:5

We can't give out of what we don't have.

The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.                                                       Zephaniah 3:17

The day after Christmas: A day in the life of Becky Green.

Most of my days begin with the sound of my mother's voice. Sometimes it's a conversation she's having in the kitchen with my father. Occasionally, I can hear her firmly notifying the sales person on the other end of the phone that she is, quite frankly, not interested. Mostly, it involves her voice telling my younger brothers what to do or what not to do. On this particular day, she was attempting to rip the covers off me so I would wake up. It was Sunday morning, you see... Church is a big deal in the Green household. There has never been a Sunday where we were not reminded of Jesus' existences. She is never really soft about awakening me; honestly, you can't be soft about it. I'm not sure if I even have a pulse when I sleep. I was quick to pull the covers back onto my now freezing body. It's amazing the love between me and my comforters. Yes, there was an "s" at the end of that word; I have two comforters that I sleep with, even in the summertime. I snuggled back into my covers and mumbled some words about how it would be okay if I just went to service and not Sunday school. I always wake up on Sunday mornings hoping that it's daylight savings and I'll be able to sleep an extra hour. After 20 minutes of arguing with myself about whether or not it would be safe to venture out of my comforters to face the igloo of a house that I seemed to be living in,  I sat up and got ready for my morning at Church. I really did look cute.  Blue top, short pencil skirt, tights, and my most prized oxford booties. To add to the detail of this story, I literally listened to the song "Shut Up and Let Me Go" by "The Ting Tings" the whole way to church. That's approximately 5 1/2 times. What can I say? I really do love that song. I honestly felt very rebellious for not going to Sunday School. I felt, excuse my french, Bad Ass. I really think it's the booties. They give me a whole new perspective on how I view myself and others. So chic. The service was genuinely okay. I always feel like people are watching the entire row that my family sits on. We kind of stand out. It may have something to do with a note that passes from one end of the row all the way to the other where my mother is sitting. I just don't understand why mom doesn't bring her cellphone to church, it would be less dramatic to send her a quick message. As if the note passing isn't enough, people notice that there is always movement on our row too. I sincerely believe that my entire family has restless leg syndrome, my brother has restless arm syndrome. He is always trying to pick a fight in the middle of the service. To say the least, Sunday mornings are always a reminder of how well God matched our family. I don't think anyone in the world could understand our complete weirdness the way we all do, and we accept it too. Service is over and drive home alone... yes, I did listen to that one song a few times again on the way back to the household. I got home and didn't even change out of my sexified outfit. Instead I found my comfort zone on the couch and got on my macbook. I really don't have to get into much detail at this point, macbook means facebook, itunes, amazon, and forever 21. My family arrived home safely, unharmed and they swiftly ALL got in their pajamas and came into the living room. My mac time was definitely being intruded. It was a good intrusion though, some genius soul in my family was hit with the idea that we should watch "Sleepless in Seattle" in our PJ's. It was quite brilliant. How I love Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan. About fifteen minutes into the movie I was out like a light. I woke up 4 hours later to a mystery movie... that probably explains why I was having such a  mysterious dream. At any rate, I had plans to go to dinner and a movie so I quickly started getting ready for the evening. I won't tell you what I had on because frankly, I have no idea. It involved a hoodie and a peacoat. It was simply freezing outside. I went to drop off my redbox. I have an issue, you see, I always forget to turn in my redbox. So it typically costs me about 4 to 5 dollars every time I get one. No worries though.. I always re watch the movie.  I like to get my dollars worth, every night. At any rate I get to the redbox and the woman in front of me was sliding her card wrong. Not just once. She slid it wrong about 5 times. Despite my complete irritation with the idiotic woman, I bit my tongue and she finally got it right and left. As I'm walking back to my car it starts snowing. This is never a good sign to me. Snow is only a reminder that is really, extremely outside. I get to the mexican restaurant and realize that I really don't want to hang out with the particular group of people I'm fixing to spend the next 6 hours with. It's work people and our conversation topic consist of; you guessed it, work. Since we can only discuss  so many ways of how to clean an ice machine or make chicken at the Chick-Fil-A on Wastonmexican restaurant and heading 2 minutes to the theatre, I would like to inform on one of my Christmas. This Christmas is crucial to the rest of the evening. My parents purchased a very nice FlipIt CamCorder. Ever since I had opened this lovely, glorious present I had carried it in my gray Forever 21 peacoat. I'm at the theatre, now sitting in the movies. At one point during the movie a girl heard something fall on the ground and she thought it was one of the guys cellphones. Well, as I'm leaving the theatre I slowly begin to realize that that crash she might've heard was possibly my glorious, lovely camcorder. I rush to my 98 Corolla where I literally begin to rip it apart... To prevent an even more awkward evening I just said "Goodbye" to everyone and went and parked somewhere else, went back inside of the theatre and started crawling on the theatre floor where I had just been sitting and enjoying a slightly dumb movie. Let's get one thing clear cellphone lights are not flashlights. While I'm crawling on the floor feeling a bit like Audrey Hephburn in "Wait Until Dark"; I reach for something that looked similar to a camera, all you have to know is that it was not a camcorder. It was something sticky and not glorious or lovely. I eventually gave the theatre my name and number, they told me they would call me IF they found it. I then left the theatre in a state of depression over my irresponsibility. I don't if I told you but I didn't eat anything at the mexican place, nothing seemed appealing. So I went to Taco Bell with my best friend and sat in the Starbucks empty parking lot while eating my 5 layer Beefey Burrito. I stayed in that parking lot talking to my best friend for a very long time. You see, it doesn't matter how terrible a days been. She's always there to be an honest opinion, partner in crime, disaster relief, shopping comrade, eating consort, and my better half. I came home and had a battle with my mother which was similar to the Battle of Fort Sumtner. Which incase you were wondering was very short because the Fort Sumtner surrendered almost immediately. Then me and my mother had life chats. I turned on Gilmore Girls and fell asleep to Rory argue with her mother. Now isn't that just the way.

100 Facts.

1. Rebekah Joy Green is my full name.

2. My college professors call me "Rebekah".  

3. Most people call me Becky or Becks. 

4. I am a female. For all those who were wondering. 

5. I was home schooled. 

6. I attend Georgia Military College.

7. I have never died my hair a different color. 

8. I really like tennis shoes designed like "keds".

9. Mascara is the only make up I wear, most of the time. 

11. I never answer my phone. It's always on silent. 

12. I'm very health aware. Health freak. 

13. I road a donkey in Santorini. 

14. I watch Gossip Girl religiously.

15. "13 Reasons Why" changed my life. 

16. I love Summertime. 

17. I got my cartilage pierced. It was pretty boss.  

18. I really do have the most loyal friends. 

19. Shopping is my stress relief.

20. I don't like excessive amount of texting.  

21. I speed when I go to work.  

22. I'm not very good at listening. 

23. Black happens to be my most favorite color.

24. I never know what to say when people state that I "look like I've lost weight". Was I fat before ? 

25. I use to know everything about Orland Bloom...

26. I'm listening to Gavin Degraw. 

27. I have a thing for guys with dark hair... I don't know why. 

29. I doodle.  

30. Singing lyrics really loudly while driving on the interstate is one of my favorite past times. 

31. I recently purchased some jeans that are fabulously sexy.

32. The last pedicure I got was a very traumatic experience. 

33. I once cut all my hair off. It was horrid. 

34. Toasted English Muffin with American Cheese is delicious. 

35. Pleated Shorts make me very happy. 

36. I love Sunflowers & Daisies. (:

37. I want to own a golden retriever.

38. I love math even though I'm not good at it.  

39. I had an itouch that I loved SO much and it get stolen. 

40. Most high schoolers annoy me. 

41. I have a MacBook Pro. Enough said. 

42. I get on Facebook way too much. I don't even like Facebook. 

43. I could really use a hug right now and some encouraging advice. 

44. I have a friend that I know, no matter what she would be there for me in a second. 

45. It is snowing.

46. I might retake Biology 101.

47. I have an obsession with Forever 21. 

48. I overanalyze situations. 

49. I have never been kissed.

51. I am insecure.

52. I expect a lot out of people. 

53. I wonder if things will ever change. 

54. I have ADHD. 

55. I don't like people who ask questions. 

56. I listen to Ke$ha. 

57. I overdramatize eating. 

58. I have a difficult time driving with Windshield Wipers going.

59. I want to live in London, England.  

60. I'm always cold.

62. I really like for things to be neat but my room is a mess. I don't sleep in there anyway. 

63. I like for people to be honest. 

64. The movie "He's Not That Into You" changed my opinion on a lot of things.

65. I love people watching.

66. I cuss sometimes. 

 67. I don't like playing pretend. 

68. I use to love playing the piano, a lot. 

69. I am told that I resemble Selena Gomez. 

70. I laugh a lot. 

71. I love learning new things. 

72. Music is really important to me. 

73. I am good at my job. It may be lame, but I am. 

74. I love to read about John F. Kennedy and Marilyn Monroe. 

75. I have always wanted to become a nurse. 

  

76. I really do enjoy being single. 

77. I want to understand football. 

78. Taylor Swift is one of my favorite celebrities.

83. I use to sleep a lot. Now I don't sleep enough.

84. I really like getting letters in the mail.

85. Me and my grandpa use to send each other poems. He lives 27 hours away. When he died, I wrote him one final poem and read it at his funeral. He's always been one of my favorite people.

86. My older sisters will never know how much they affect my life. 

87. I like being by myself. 

88. I don't believe in love at first. 

89. I like analogies.

  

90. I haven't read my Bible in a long time.

91. I don't like surprises. 

92. A woman once cussed me out for calling her "sir" by accident.

93. I don't like crying in front of people, it pisses me off. 

94. I don't like drinking. I don't need alcohol to have a good time. 

95. Pollen is flower sperm. Think about that when you're cleaning it off of your car.  

96. I have become my own worst critic. 

  

97. Having a family is really important to me.

98. I don't want to give my entire life to a person and have them in return throw it away.

99. I'm a daily prodigal child. God is constant and forgiving. 

100. No matter where I go or what I do... I will always have my family.